I love that I have experiences coming to the Lord in adoration in all emotional states of my life.  

I remember going to adoration after a break up; I had thought this relationship was going to make it. It was my first Christ-centered relationship that turned serious in a short amount of time. I had put a lot of expectation and hope in this relationship, thinking that because I met someone that loved the Lord and we were being intentional, it meant it would lead to marriage. I had grown confident in hearing God’s voice in my life so when it didn’t work out, I felt confused and disappointed. 

I remember the pew literally left a dent on my forehead because my head felt so heavy, but I showed up because I knew Jesus was the only one who could understand. I walked out of the chapel with a sense of knowing deep in my heart that not only did he see my hurt and disappointment, but he met me there and offered himself as my resting place.  

I have also come to adoration beaming from cheek to cheek, excited to thank him for something he already knows about, like when I had been spending time with the Lord throughout my discernment of moving to Detroit. I was moving from a one bedroom apartment to renting a room in a house, and the one thing I was actually sad to part with was my portable washing machine. I kept this in my heart, only to find a random full sized washer and dryer waiting for me in the closet of my new bedroom! That was a moment I thanked him for speaking to my heart in a way only I would understand.  

There are times when I just show up, not knowing how I need to be ministered to and I leave that up to him because that’s what only he can do.  

I don't know how to explain it other than to say I am one way before I go to meet him and then I am changed after the encounter. There's a shift in my heart, whether it is unloading some kind of burden or feeling like my cup has been filled after spending joyful time with a good friend. My circumstance may not change afterwards, but he somehow takes it and responds in a way that makes sense to me.